My mum was shocked. Yes, cornell, remove the face cap please. She said. I didn’t know what was going on with me again. If it was my hand that has refused to be lifted or me who has refused to lift the hand. Cornell, my mum shouted Yes mum, i replied -is your ear not functioning or have you become handicapped ? I was trying to try and answer when mum’s hand flew to my head . She took off my cap. My mum shouted….. Jesus christ of Nazareth . God oooo. Akwokwanu mu aka tiere okuko aki ooooo.(i have washed by hands just to break palm kernels for fowl) -Junior, not in my house. Ike okuko(fowls butt) hair style, in my house? Satan is a liar. She called sister sophia -sophia, get me knife What ? Did she say knife? Knife, oh my God knife. All i was saying was KNIFE. I started sweating from my brain to my heart. She won’t do jack joor. I’m an only son, she can’t kill me. what did i even do? Because of haircut. Sister sophia was looking at mum… -Mum, she called, did you say i should get you Knife? -Which knife? Mum fired back,What will i be doing with knife? I said SCISSORS . -But mum you said KNIFE. -sophia for the love of God, forget about what you heard and bring what you’re hearing now. Scissors please, thank you. Now mum is serious, scissors on my head means CLEAN SKIN. Gorimakpa, what? Argh!!! Nooooo, I’m going to GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION tomorrow. My swag, oh God. I started crying. I was crying. I went on my knees. One spirit that was sounding like Gresh’s voice was telling me to change it for my mum. The voice…… Oga stand up there and fight for your right. Why you dey cry? Wetin you do? You kee person? My friend wise up. Walk up to your mother and defend your freedom. Another one was saying….. Guy, park out. Park out joor. You get money to rent house. Park out and be free. Paaaarrrrrkkkk oooouuuuuutttttt. Hey, war was going on in my mind. I stood up like i was being controlled by a remote. Went straight to my wardrobe and started bringing down my clothes. Sister sophia and mum came in. Junior, what are you doing? Sister sophia asked. Wicked girl, i murmured in my heart. How’s that her problem ? -Cornell, mum called, what do you think you are trying to do? Didn’t even say a word. Mum came close to me. -young man, i am talking to you. What are you trying to do? Then that devil roaming about inside me came out. -mum, i answered, i need my space. I need my space. Junior this, junior that. I love swag. I love God too. I want to serve him with my swag. And mum, you won’t touch this hair, you hear me. I am no more a kid. I rather catch cold on the street than die of choking hotness from all of you. I kept on parking my things. Everywhere went calm. The JAGABAN in me started growing horn. Before i could grow more horn, KPAAAAA, one my left chin, mum slapped me. -satan won’t use you. Cornell Chieweta Adindu junior, satan, won’t use you. Swag gbakwa oku. (swag catch fire). Swag gbajikwa ekwensu onu(swag should break satan’s neck) swag ebeobuna ino,(where ever you are) thunder, with bullet, scatter you. I got very angry, and for the first time, i raised my voice at mum. -what was that for? Why would you slap me? Wetin sef? Na you born me oya kuku kill me. Swag no go die. My swag carry Jesus big time. Wetin sef, no try slap me again o. Mum fired back… -junior are you talking to me? Sophia slapped me again…. -you are very stupid junior I slapped sophia back…. -Get married, church whore. Get out and get married. Commotion in my home. Surely, according to the scriptures, AMOS 3:3 CAN TWO WORK, UNLESS THEY AGREE ? In the mist of the commotion, dad walked in.
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Dad walked in. Everyone went cold. I actually freezed. Never has such been seen in our home. I wasn’t the course i thought. They won’t let me be. -what’s going on here? Dad asked. He now looked at me from head to toe. -oh, he said, now i see. Mum wanted to complain. Dad paused her. -that’s alright honey. Let’s see in our room please. Mum tried saying something. Dad hushed her again. He took her by the hand and they headed for their room. Sophia left too. I watched my dad walk away with his wife without saying a word. This man’s silence is flogging the hell out of me. What’s on his mind? What does he want to do? I know my dad. He is a no nonsense, strict, beliver. Sister Nancy walked in. I greeted, she didn’t respond. I greeted again, she didn’t respond. Hmmm, sister sophia must have called her. That girl’s mouth needs a sewing machine. They are not even my headache. Dad is. I had to go close to my parents room. I was so anxious, desperate. I was eager to know what’s on my dad’s mind. I had to eavesdrop. Dad was telling mum….. Honey, this is what i am trying to avoid. Do you know what the bible says? We are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight and run in endurance. Honey, i heard your voices from the gate. People heard it too. Do you know what it will become? Pastor Cornell’s family is fighting. What a shame. Honey no matter what, you should have waited for me. Hmmm, don’t think i don’t know what I’m doing. I was wanting to hear more when i received a heavy spank on my butt. I stood up. Argh, Sister NANCY….. -what are you doing by dad’s door? Junior has it.gotten to this? I knelt down and started begging. Her voice must not bring dad and mum out. Infact i had to lie down and beg. -now, leave this place . I ran more than bolt to my room. I sat on my bed. Hmmm, i sighed. I have decided I’m not doing that nonsense old time religion of bottle neck shirt and flappy trousers with that nonsense slavery haircut. No style no shape, no swag. On top somebody will be walking like moving stick, no bounce,nothing. Mba o Chai, i can’t wait to attend GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION tomorrow. But nna ehee, the clothe i want to wear, how do i cross this gate? Or, maybe i should dress pastorized here then goan change in Gresham’s house? Nooo, i thought. I want the street to feel me mehn. I headed for my wardrobe. I brought out this clothe. My multi-coloured crazy jean, it has a touch of yellow, so I’m wearing a yellow blazer. I got out my necklace. 5 of it. It looked much. I decided to wear just two. I arranged them on my bed and was smiling like a toothless sheep. I shouted…… -Ama rock for Jesus yaw!!! Woooooow. I started dancing shaku-shaku and gwara-gwara. I just paused at the gwara-gwara when i remembered i haven’t told my parents. Chai, gwara-gwara and shaku-shaku gone wrong. Swag m enwekwa illegal k-leg. (My swag has developed k-leg). I sat down. What do i do? I called Gresham. -hello, guy -junior how far na? -oh boy, nna problem dey o. -see, no just tell me say you no dey come again o. -hmm, Gresh ehee, as ah dey now, not too sure of tomorrow o. I never tell my old man o. -hehehehe Gresh laughed. Nna this guy, o’boy, tell your papa say them call you for programme na. Say them need guitarist. You no plan am and na you them take geh hope. (I forgot to mention earlier that i am a bassist. I started playing the bass guitar from a tender age. Thanks to my dad) -Choi, baddest. I hailed my friend. Guy, you eheee.no wahala. Ah go try. -see, Gresham continued, even if your popsy no gree, oh boy, ADULTIFY yourself o. Stand your ground. No give up easily o. -ah hear, i replied. ———————THE NEXT MORNING —————- At our morning Altar, dad didn’t say jack about my hair,but he warned us against raising voices ever again in his house. He didn’t even mention my name. After prayers, i had to tell my dad…… -dad, i called, i won’t be in church today. -hmmm, and you’re just telling me now? -dad, it came late. They need a bassist in their church today. -what’s the church please? -Gold crown.congregation i answered. -hmmm, my dad sighed. Gold crown congregation. Cornell, he called, do you know you are a worker in church? And you are to inform the leader of your department 2weeks or 1 week at list that you won’t be in church? -dad, it just came up this morning. -this morning okwa ya, (right ?) my mum replied. You are not going any where. Tell them you are not coming. Tell them the notice is too short. This woman. I wished i could shout , MADAM WILL YOU KEEP QUIET? Allow the man talk for heaven’s sake. -honey calm down, dad said to mum. Cornell, he called me, call your departmental head and inform him. I was angry. Why? For What? Who is he?. My dad owns the church. Why would i take permission from that idiot. I had no choice. -ok dad. I replied. I went into my room and called James, the music department director. -hello, ah cornell, i was about calling you o -why? I asked -temi isn’t coming to church today o. He is not feeling fine . So you are covering up for him full service both choir ministration. I dropped the call and switched off my phone. What rubbish !!!! All odds against my swag today. For what na.Please bro James, i didn’t hear you. I jumped into the bathroom. I didn’t even use sponge. That James will soon call dad. I have to get out of the house before dad gets to know. Woow, all set. Cornell in the mirror was looking sweet. So i can be this cute. I wore my sun shade, picked up my bible . No need i murmured, it’s in my phone. I opened the door to my room. No one was outside. I ran out. What a miracle!!! The gate was open. I could pass through without one single noise. I walked on the streets like a prince. People didn’t say it but the way the were looking at me did. I switched my phone on.Gresham’s call came in. -guy, wey you dey na? -bros, chillax na. On my way. -wooooooow, hahahaha, Gresh laughed, you made it. Good one boy, Good one. Oya take bike dey come. -ok. Immediately i dropped the call, bro james call came in. I switched off the phone. Some minutes later, i got to GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION. Mehn, see **people. See dressing, oh my God. I belong here. This is what i like. Ushers* welcomed me warmly. Gresh came and took me to the choir area. See pastor* . Chineke. Pastor is on polo and jean. Wow, see his canvas. Designers o. One lady was also dressed in same polo and jean. Same canvas too. My God. Glooorrry!!! I said to my self, i love this place. I also got to know that the lady on same dressing with the pastor is his wife. She even has her hair tinted. See swag!!! Wow. GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION is an opposite of my church, no MY FATHER’S CHURCH, GRACE HAVEN BELIEVES CHURCH. I love it here. Freedom of worship. Anyhow you are. Just believe Jesus, you are covered. Pastor frank’s message says OUT OF DARKNESS. He said, the clothe you wear,can’t make you darkness because God has given us power over all he created. The most important thing is power of God. Choi, I’m feeling it here mehn. There and then, i decided to also tint my hair. I decided to leave the house if my dad makes any noise. I have seen the light. So i thought.
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The youth fellowship were to meet after service. I stayed back. Wow!!! See youths. They were looking sooo expensive. All of them were shining. See girls, ladies. This church nawa. Girls were on leggings, jeggings, trousers, jump suit. Awwww, they were looking so beautiful. See their makeup, eyelashes, skin, oh mah Gad!!! I started crushing for the lady who lead the opening prayer. I was shocked with what i saw. Immediately she started by saying……. -Oh let’s begin to worship the king of kings for a wonderful service. Argh!!! I started hearing speaking in tongues. Eheeee? I opened corner eye. Unbelievable!!! These ones? I was like…… See dawan with one pack of red lipstick on her lip. She is even speaking in tongues? And the other one raising her hands that has claws in place of nails, she can speak in tongues too? Ha!!! I looked behind me, one brother was wearing dread o, see him sweating and speaking in tongues. The lady i was crushing on, who was leading had this cute tinted galax hair cut. She pierced her ear into three places. One sister did not mercy of the eye lash. She really really followed the name. She lashed her eye with GREEN colour o. She even fixed that one they fix. She was bursting in this powerful tongue ehee. My God!!! Who will see these ones and believe they are born again to start with. See them flowing in the holyghost. Me that is pastor holiness son, i don’t even know how to pray very well, let alone be in spirit like this. Opening prayer ended. Praise and worship took off. One brother on weaving came out. Whaaaaaat? When i mean weaving, i mean he plaited his hair. Hmmmm. The guy can sing. Come and see dance. one lady was just shaking her butt. Ha!!! You can’t see any of these in my father’s church. Dad calls them APPEARANCES OF EVIL and the bible boldly said we should ABSTAIN . Dad will always say, looking good is good but becomes bad when it insults God’s creation and promotes the work and of the devil and products of the kingdom of darkness. I was just in a mist of turbulent waters. I was confused. I was battling in my spirit, while the dancing and shouting went on, i was lost in thoughts. i was like…… -junior what’s wrong with you na? See Jesus swag nom o, you’re dulling yourself. Ogbeni dance joor. Woooooow, i started dancing. It was fun. I was enjoying it. MM.Dad will always say, YOU DON’T GET ENTERTAINMENT IN THE HOUSE OF GOD. YOU GET MINISTRATION. Entertainment makes you laugh, makes you happy but cannot REVIVE. Dad said, MINISTRATION CARRIES REVIVAL FIRE because it goes with the leading and directives of the Holy spirit. I remembered this when comedians were brought up to……… I just lost the word to use. I would say entertain. Hmmm,,my dad will never allow a comedian in his church. Everything was just different here. Time for special number. One brother was RAPPING. Heeeeee!!! Wooow. Mehn, i started loving it all. The straw that broke the camel’s neck was when the youth leader mounted the podium to preach. Wooooow. His message changed my entire reasoning about thia born again thing. I immediately considered my dad backward and old fashioned. His topic was “YOU ARE A god” He said was bought me over completely. His words……. God created man and named man but God created animals and other things and gave man the Authority to name them. What Adam called the animals, trees, fruits and so on, is what they bare. Hey, God has created you he said. Create your own world as a youth. He now said……… Youths, don’t make Christianity boring. Many churches loose souls because they are too strict. I thank God for our Mama and papa. Dress to kill. Yeah. Don’t go looking old, tieing scarf every minute, looking shabby, looking so unattractive. Don’t you see our mama, baby la hot for Jesus. ,(they started shouting) and our papa boo la hot for Jesus as well. Girls, bring in the guys, guys draw in the girls. Instead of them going to clubs, draw them to church, to God. They don’t need any outward change. The bible says, if you confess with your mouth, believe in your heart that christ is the son of God, (all of them shouted ) YOU ARE SAVED,(they clapped and cheered) He continued….. Your sins are forgiven. Meheeen, i was loaded. Now I’m convinced. Dad doesn’t know anything new. He is of the old time religion that was good for only PAUL AND SAILAS. (That song is very correct) on my way home, i went straight to the saloon. -guy abeg, tint my hair. Ehen, how dem take dey get pink lips sef. I told my barber. He was just looking at me. -wetin happen na? Tint my hair gold colour one side like that. -hmmm, junior he replied. No be your papa church you dey go again? Before na fowl n**sh you barb. Now you won tint am join con.dey ask pink lips. Junior hmmmm, take am easy o. Yahoo church full eveywhere o. You no dey live with your papa again? I got angry. -e be like say you no need my money. Mah go another place. He changed his mouth….. -argh, no naaa, e never reach like that. Oya sidon. Wait mah finish this one. He was making a man’s hair. I sat and waited. Dear listener, ladies and gents, i got my hair tinted. As for the pink lips, he told me what to do. As i walked home. I noticed the fear of mum and dad was no longer there. All on my mind was, WORSE COME TO WORSE, I PARK COMOT. It was almost 7:45pm when i got home. I walked into the house. There was light so everyone could see my hair at first sight. Dad was the first person who saw me followed by mum. Dad was just looking at me. Mum shouted. -chineke meeehhh, (my God) junior, what did you do with your hair? Heeeeey!!! It has gotten to the extent of painting your hair? I thought you said it was a church you were going to? Is this what you went to do? Dad was just looking at me. -mum, i replied, this is what i want, who i want, and how i want it. I’m an adult now. Allow me to be me. The colour is just on my hair, not in my life. My dad who was silent now spoke. -junior that’s a life. The spot started from your life. The colour of your life changed. It changed the colour of whom you are, your true identity, and what you represent. That change of colour first takes place from within. Son, i have been prayerfully following you. Don’t take my silence for weakness. I your father, stopped doing what i want, being who i want, thinking how i want, since the day i gave my life to Christ. I am not asking you to be like me, you are to be like christ. What you are doing now is COMPROMISING. Jesus can’t do that. Son, i have given you the opportunity to count your teeth with your tongue but you didn’t. I will teach you how a good son should behave. Go on your knees now. I looked my dad in the face and said…….. -i won’t. What for exactly ? Did i kill somebody? Did i steal from you? Because i f***ing made my hair ? Who does that ? My dad slapped me….. -the F word is *prohibited in this house and you know it. Cornell, you will not rubbish this gospel of holiness i have upheld before you were born. I replied my* dad…… -It is not a must to follow your OLD TIME RELIGION. It was only Good for PAUL AND SILAS. I am not any of them. I am a child of God too. This is how i choose to serve God. -it won’t work in my house. (Dad said with the loudest voice ever) I tried walking out. Dad pull me back. Join us on telegram through+256706117714 to read more stories from story headquarters room. I pushed his hands. Dad tried again to hold me back. I pushed him to the ground. -you can’t hold me back. Just as your own father couldn’t hold you back. Junior mum shouted My sisters stood and was looking helplessly Dad broke down in tears. He was heavily crying as he walked back to his room. Mum was crying too. she followed dad. My sisters ran into their room. That night, i decided to leave the house. I left. With Gresh’s recommendations, i moved into papa and mama’s house. I now stay with my new pastors. Papa and Mama AKPAN. My freedom was just a bold step into bondage.
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Pastor frank Akpan and his wife are wonderful people. They took me in like their own son. My room was air -conditioned, alot more bigger than the one at home. I was enjoying freedom at it’s peak. Mhen i dressed. Infact, like a bird who has been in cage, my own flying was to the extreme. I started wearing dread. I got the pink lips i craved for. I could wear whatever to church. I was enjoying it. Mum kept calling, asking me to come back home. I could go naked if i wanted but i should just come back home. I replied mum thus…… -mum, there’s no way I’m coming back to that house. I’m a man now. I won’t live with you forever. Start getting use to it. I asked about dad and my sisters. My dad did the unbelievable. He paid my school fees and sent me my upkeep money. He gives me allowance every month. My dad is just something else. My freedom starting get the better part of me. I pierced my ear. It’s allowed in my church. As the bassist, i needed to look cute. The ladies were falling head over hills for me. One sunday, it was annouced that the youths will be organizing praise night. The choir already started rehearsals. Hmmm, our choir!!! Our choir was messed up. Choristers were dating themselves. Infact, most of them were making out during vigils. The kind of sexy things ladies wore to vigil rehearsal is something else. Short skirt, when i say short, i mean very very short. Maybe because of my up bringing, i was the only one who wasn’t into that stuff. One night we came for rehearsal. We were told we will be ministering in a church we were invited. That night, as we rehearsed, Bummi was just all over me. Bummi coker is our soprano singer. She is a banker and i heard she is rich. I wore sleveless top and three quarter short. I love to.chew gum anytime I’m on the guitar. I also wearing my shades. I smiled all through. Bummi was just giving me winks all through the rehearsal. Time to rehearse praise songs. Bummi started dancing and moving her butts. Oh My God !!! For the first time,my body reacted. Rehearsal closed around 4:15am. I was very tired. Our music director can stress for africa. I went to find a condusive space to lay my head. Bummi came to me. -cornell she called smiling a seductive kind of smile. I smiled back with so much fear. My heart was beating fast. -how are you? She asked as she was rubbing her hands on my arm. -i’m, i’m, i’m fine, i stammered, smiling too. -i have eyes for you cornell she said. Your looks is breath taking. I can’t stand it anymore. Just hold me. Ha!!! I’m i dreaming? This bummi just finished speaking in tongues o, while worship was going on. I stood up, took two steps back, turned and walked faster than shadow. Infact i started running.i came down and was walking along the walkway when i started hearing noise. I paused. Jesus!!!! That wasn’t noise, that was MOANING. Some persons were actually…….what??? I hurriedly tried moving away when i heard the male’s voice. I was shocked to my bones. GRESHAM !!! My friend. I ran outside. Behind the pillar again, another set kissing. What is going on here?? I came out to really take a look at the building. Yes na, i’m correct, it’s our church. I’m in the church. Once vigil closes, they turn the lights off. It doesn’t happen in my father’s church. When youths / choir is having vigil, an elder must be present in my father’s church. What baffles me is the ANOINTING that flows when we minister. Hmmm, i got the shock of my life when we were about leaving for a church program we were invited to minister. I was sitted in the church hall waiting. I had my ear piece on. I was listening to the song we were to minister. We were to take HEART FIXER by Tye tribbett. It’s a crazy song. That’s how we roll in my choir. I felt like going to the backyard with my guitar to rehearse under fresh air. I started hearing voices. I totally removed my earpiece to hear them. Their conversation…….. -omo, tonight go make sense. ,-i swear down. We gonna give them holyghost mehn. -yea man, the one wey dey inside shepe…. Laughter. -Nna, we need to high to showcase the praise of the MOSTHIGH. Laughter. Heeeeey, i silently shouted. These guys are drinking o. So this is the secret behind their undying strength ? No wonder. So this is the ANOINTING? Hmmm!!! Noo, i need to talk to mama and papa. I have seen enough. Why are they all misbehaving like this? I thought i heard it when they mentioned my name….. -come, one of them started, that Cornell of a guy, eim from deeperlife? Laughter. -that “my dad said” of a boy? (Laughter) -pure correct daddy’s boy. See as babes dey die foram. Even sis Bummi, that banker wey ah be dey eye since. -you don’t mean it… Arrgh laye laye, Cornell no go date bummi o. I won’t allow it o. I have been clearing ground to get into her heart na. Hmmm, what kind of thing is this? I thought. I quietly tiptoed back to the church. At the program come and see performance, excess energy. Speaking in tongues an’ari ibeya elu (speaking in tongues was just much) The lead vocallist who also plays guitar had to “FALL UNDER ANOINTING” while playing the guitar o. He raised both legs up in the name of UNDER THE INFLUENCE OF THE HOLYGHOST. Little did they know he was actually under heavy influence of Alcohol. People were shouting. Even the other guys were speaking in tongues. I saw all these yet i wasn’t going back. I loved it here in GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION where grace covers all our sins. Our sins are forgiven!!!! One evening, i came home from school and saw mama FAITH AKPAN, in my bedroom. She always wore bumshots at home. My mama has four kids, all grown up but she looks like a lady in her 30s. My mama is 48years old. I was shocked seeing her in my room. -mama, good evening ma. -good evening cute. Welcome. I have been waiting for you. The Lord says i should give you this. (She handed over a very fat envelope) the Lord said, YOUR FATHER AND MOTHER HAS ABAABANDONED YOU but he has not. He knows the dept you owe in school and the financial challenges you are going through. Son, the Lord has come to reward you. I smiled. -thank you ma. I replied -you are welcome. She left. Hmm, i sighed. This prophecy is a lie.join us on telegram through +256706117714 to get more exciting stories from there. My dad did not abandon me. It still beats my imagination how after all that happened , he never for one month stayed without sending my allowance. He even paid my fees and cleared my debt in school. Well, maybe it’s for the future. I opened the envelope. It was a whooping sum of 500k. 5Wraps of 100k. Woooow, my 2years allowance. I ran back to the sitting room she wasn’t there. I rushed to her bedroom and knocked. -come in she said I did. -mama, this is too much. Thank you ma. God bless you. -you’re welcome. Cornell, she called. Come, come and sit here. Next to me. We need to talk. -ok ma. I asked for her permission to draw the side stool closer and sit. She said no. -come and sit on my bed, next to me. I swallowed my smile. I was just hearing POTIPHAR’S WIFE!!! I Kept on asking who is potiphar’s wife. I totally forgot. When i remembered, i was already sitting on her bed, i just said…… -ehhe, potiphar’s wife I held my mouth and stood up. -what??? She asked. -nothing ma, i replied. I have to leave now ma. I ran to the door. It was locked. I looked back. She smiled. Oh no, this is not happening, i cried.
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Ma, i want to go back to my room please ma. I was just shaking like jelly fish. Mama stood up and walked into the bathroom. I started searching for the keys. I turned and found out that the key to the bathroom is outside the door which is rather strange. One mind said look the door and ask her to show you where she kept the keys else she will remain there. The other mind said, eheee, Don’t try it o. You will be sent out o. Hey, you needed to see me. I never knew sweat could be very hot. I was just muttering POTIPHAR’S WIFE, POTIPHAR’S WIFE. God of JOSEPH save me. I quickly remembered that Joseph ran off and left his garment which was used as evidence against him. I quickly took off my shirt. She was still in the bathroom. Hey God, where do i hide this shirt. At list she can’t drag empty chest and belted trouser. I wish i could swallow the shirt. I hid it under my armpit. Mama was still in the bathroom. What is going on? What has she been doing in there? I can’t believe it. I started crying. I paused. Something came to mind. WARDROBE, Yes, Wardrobe. I will hide in the wardrobe. But, what if she’s watching me from the bathroom. I kept quiet. Soon, i started hearing shower running. BINGO i shouted. I quickly ran into the wardrobe and closed the door. I was peeping from the wardrobe. Unbelievably, mama walked out of the bathroom completely naked. I wanted to die. I closed my eyes. Whaat? Reverend mrs faith Akpan? Noo, it can’t be. She was confused. She was looking around. -cornell, cornell, she called. Where are you? Baby please don’t do this to me. Jesus oooooooo, i shouted in silence I was really crying. I begged the Lord to save me. I sensed fear in her. Maybe she was thinking i disappeared. She quickly wrapped up with her towel. Out of fear and curiousity, she opened the door and went through the way that leads to my room. I came out and ran . I took the kitchen way and ran to Edet’s house. He is the gate keeper. Edet too ran in with me. I was breathing fast. Edet was holding his chest and looking at me. -Cornell, wetin be that? Who dey purse you? I went on my knees….. -father thank you Lord. Jesus thank you. Thank you for saving me. Edet was looking at me. -edet, water water water i demanded. -noooo, Edet replied. Cool down first. Cool down. Me——ok ok ok. I slept off in Edet’s room. Mama’s voice woke me up. -Edet, she called. have you seen cornell? -ma, Edet replied. Cornell is sick o. He almost fainted while coming down stairs. He was running. I don’t know what was pursing him o. -Did you ask him? She asked. What did he say. -mama, he was saying THANK YOU JESUS. -hmmm, ok. Take this money, go to the bookshop at Parkinson, tell them you want original olive oil. We are having Anointing service. -ok ma. Edet left. Mama the potiphar’s wife came into edet’s room. -cornell, why are you behaving like a child? Let’s roll and you won’t regret it. Roll kwa? Osi Roll? I was just looking at her. -listen Cornell, even the bible says we should give unto ceaser what’s ceaser’s and God what’s God’s. -ma, i replied with shaking lips. I can’t do such wickedness. I can’t commit such abomination. You are my pastor ma. How can you…… I didn’t even finish my long sermon when she did it……. Mama faith Akpan, wife of papa frank Akpan did it. She actually did it…..she kissed me. We kissed. Hmmm, i narrate with tears in my heart dear youths, that that one minute pleasure was the beginning of one million troubles in my life. Mama faith and i started dating. The first day, i felt like i have done the worse thing. She kept on assuring me that God has forgiven me even before i did it. She told me it’s no big deal. I should just pray and forget about it.
Brethen, and that was it. I threw caution to the wind. I became a stranger in the kingdom. I was always busy going from programme to programmes, ministering in.songs and instruments. One day, my music director called me. He said to me….. -cornell, you are a great worship leader but you can’t speak in tongues. Why can’t you speak in tongues? -sir, i replied, I’m still waiting for the holy spirit to touch me (hmmm, holy spirit indeed. For i knew, i was just an empty dirty vessel. His reply shocked the daylight out of me) -listen cornell. This is not the time of the apostles. I will teach you how to speak in tongues. WHAT !!!!! ha!!! Well…..do i have a choice? that’s not what my dad said. It is called holy ghost tongue na. In our youths conference some years ago, when dad talked to the youths about BEING HOLY GHOST FILLED. I was 10 years then. I can never forget in a hurry what happened that day. After dad’s ministration, power came down, all the youths, i.mean all, encountered Holyghost for real. They were speaking in real Holy ghost tongue. Now this one says he wants to teach me. Well, i am now lost in sin. I have no choice but to settle for the counterfeit. So we started. My music director started He said…… -now say after me Bababa Hmmm, i sighed in spirit. Ta wu ta. (today na today) i replied….. -bababa -shinda la la, he continued -shinda la la, i replied. Now, join both together he said -bababa, shinda lala, i replied -Nice one, he shouted. Say it again -bababa, shinda la la -woooow, glory, he shouted. Now join this one. Rikababobo -sir, i replied He got angry….. -listen.to me cornell, i am teaching you as the utterance is coming please be sharp enough to catch it. -I’m sorry, i apologised. -what did i even say before, ehen, he remembered, RIKABABOBO -Rikababobo i replied -shetawalele….. -What? Sir please, i think I’m done for today. Thanks. I got up and left. He was just shouting at and was threatening to stop me from singing. I didn’t give a hoot. I went home that day and found *myself practising SPEAKING IN TONGUES. We had a programme to attend the next morning . Papa frank was always travelling. That night, mama and i ROLLED. * First it was a stepping in, into the ocean of sin. Now i am.being drowned in it. True what dad said, ONCE YOU ARE BOLD ENOUGH TO ACCOMODATE ONE SIN, YOU ARE AUTOMATICALLY OPEN TO MANY MORE.
And so it was, i joined them. I joined the HIGHERS GROUP. We would drink to be high. When we mount the stage, you will think this people are FIRE.
I took over the mic. As i started speaking in TONGUES , i bit my tongue. It was horrible. The tip of my tongue tore in two. On stage i was bleeding. That was God’s first warning. I didn’t listen. I was took engulfed with sin that i didn’t notice my maker was warning me.
FOR, IT IS A VERY FEARFUL THING TO FALL INTO THE HANDS OF GOD.
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According to my sisters…….. one morning after the family morning Alter, mum was in tears. She pleaded with dad to call me. Dad refused. According to my sisters, dad said….. -i have never, and will never fail in my duties as a father. I take examples from God himself. We are sinners, yet he never deprived us of his love. But what God does not do is force people to come to him. It is a personal decision. Honey, dad called mum, i won’t call junior. Just like the prodigal son, bible says when he exhausted all he had, HE REMEMBERED HOME and then HIS FATHER. You know cornell thought i was too old fashioned christain. I am only following divine principles. Bible says, Let everything be done decently and in order. The house of God is not a psychiatric home for mad people. I am praying for him, i did not abandon him but you see this university of experience he enroled himself by himself, he needs to thoroughly learn from it. Only then can he understand and choose by himself which to follow. The swagger kind of christainity or THE BIBLE STANDARD. Mum cried and cried. Then she shared her revelation. Mum said…. Honey, it was so real. I kept hearing a lady’s voice echoing his name. He was running after the voice. I was running after him. I was running and crying, and i was saying JUNIOR COME BACK. He didn’t listen to me. Honey you were watching from afar, i was telling you to call him back, you refused. I kept following him. Then, he got to the woman, she has very looong hair, and very long nails. Cornell called her DARLING. What? I replied, dar what ? Never, not when I’m alive. The woman said to me, “Then prepare to die because he belongs to me” “Shut that gutter you call a mouth” i replied. How dare you reply a daughter of zion in such manner, i told her, i will not die, i will live and declare God’s goodness in the Land of the living. She replied she wasn’t there because of me because we have nothing in common. She was there for cornell. Then she drew cornell closer and kissed him before my very eyes. I shouted TAAAAAAAAAR, how dare you? I pushed cornell away and slapped him. Are are Alright? I asked, have you lost? No shame, No respect, No fear of God? The woman said cornell, there no time. Let’s go. “To where” i asked. I faced cornell. You are not going anywhere. “Cornell” the woman shouted. Let’s Go, now!!! Cornell pushed me. Then he said to me….. -mum, let me be. Please, just like dad, MIND YOUR BUSINESS. Cornell followed her. I was crying and shouting. Cornell you are my business. Come back my son. He did not come back. He followed the woman. At the end of that road was a ditch burning with fire. The woman pushed him inside. According to my sisters, that line got them crying. They entered into prayers. Mum begged dad to call me, dad refused. Except i call him and apologise. Dear youths, My relationship with mama faith became even stronger. Her daughter is almost my age, she’s 21. Lydia came home from her school in ghana. She is so beautiful. She was wearing a short jean and jean jacket. She had this crazy hair cut. I just couldn’t take my eyes off her legs, woow very fresh. Lydia is a beauty to behold. She saw me and was looking at me. I grew butterflies in my stomach. Now, this was what my affair with MAMA FAITH caused for me. I started womanizing. I started having eyes for lydia. Gresh my friend started hating me. I never knew why until i pumped into MAMA FAITH taking calls. -listen to me gresh, i chose you right? Now I’m done with you. Stop pestering me. Ha, eheee? Are my ears deceiving me? I quickly dodged and took out my phone and was recording the conversation. I didn’t know Gresham’s reply but she gave out a huge laugh and replied thus…… -Hahahahahahahaha, foool. Idiot. You have no prove. No pictures, you do not even have a glue of how my body is. Why do you think it must be at night and must be dark? Look, i have always known you will turn out this way. You are a looser. Stop calling this line. And listen, don’t you dare try anything stupid. I will crush you. She dropped the call. I ran into the toilet as she stepped out of the sitting room. Jesus Christ !!! I screamed silently. is she not supposed to be a pastor’s wife? Even she herself, a pastor ? I just had a voice that sounded like my dad’s -and are you not supposed to be the son of a pastor? Who once taught the youths in church. Can you remember ? The last topic you spoke on? THE SET APART. I got chills all over me. Goose bumps grew in their hundreds. God was speaking, he was speaking, he was trying to call me back. I started crying. I have gone deep. My life is messed up. Now i drink, i womanize. Indeed, dad said it….. “When a drop, just a drop of kerosene drops into a drum of clean purified water, it becomes useless. Kerosene and water is liquid but can never be thesame”. I have accomdated more than just a drop. I was crying. Yet, i couldn’t let go. I couldn’t drop this load of sin. I still found pleasure in them. Even as God’s spirit spoke to my soul, i was hatching plans to get off MAMA FAITH’S HOOK. I already have eyes for LYDIA. I won’t rest until i eat her too. First i need to spew out her mum. I walked out of the toilet, leaving behind the words of God’s spirit to me. Infact, i flushed it down the toilet. MAMA was invited to a women’s convention as guest speaker. She told me to accompany her. PAPA was like why will a man accompany her to a women’s convention. -just as an Aide she replied. -you are stressing this guy too much. Don’t take his humility as stupidity. He is going no where. Mama got angry. Come and hear hot argument. Papa finally allowed us. We got to her lodge. Mama undressed. the lights were on. I got out my phone and was taking shots. Mama didn’t even oblige. The old woman was just posing. This is someone who was invited for a convention. What will she be teaching women bikonu. Satan got the better part of me dear youths. I was bent on using those pictures to blackmail her if she tries stopping Lydia and me. What Gresham didn’t do, i have done. I felt like i had the whole world right in my palm. I refused doing anything with her even when she tried forcing it. Lydia was all i had in mind. I watched MAMA as she ministered. People were falling under…….do i call it ANOINTING? Miracles were happening. I was confused. How come? Hmmm, i played the keyboard as she ministered. The spirit was moving but i don’t know what spirit it was because THE HOLYSPIRIT has nothing to do with a sinner. After the programme that night, she tried forcing herself on me. I refused. I started avoiding. I used the program she came for as excuse. We might get caught. Lydia and me started getting along well. She would always hug me, play with me. She would always want to be with me. PAPA liked what he saw. He liked our closeness. That was an advantage. MAMA was always angry each time she sees lydia and me. One day, we were in the sitting room. I couldn’t hold it anymore. I dragged lydia and kissed her. She didn’t refuse. The way she responded showed she too has been in need of it. We were on the unholy act when MAMA walked in. HOLYSPIRIT she shouted. What? In my house? Cornell, you dare try defining my daughter in my house? You are so done for. She started pressing her phone, probably trying to call PAPA. I quickly sent her the nudes. Her expression showed she’s got the message. I winked. She dropped her phone and said to us….. -this is the house of God. How dare you defile here? What if a minister of God comes to visit? What rubbish!!! Will you get out. Iydia was shivering. i wasn’t. I have the password to lock her up. I smiled in victory. I never knew, oh, i never knew (crying) i never knew i was taking a viper for earthworm. I totally forgot that a fox only looks like a dog. It is not friendly like the dog. Indeed, the devil walketh about seeking whom he will devour. THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF THE END FOR ME.
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Mum called me that night, i did not pick. I heard it ring but refused to pick. I don’t want someone spoiling my mood with scary sermon. Hmmm, mum sent me a DM. It read…. “Cornell, dear son, i write with tears. Satan is after you. The forces of darkness your father fought and conquered have decided to take their revenge on you. Darling, i have been praying. It will be deadly. You are surrounded with demons who parade as angel of light. Son, i am begging you to come back, not to my home but to Jesus. It will still be useless if you come home and you’re still far from Jesus. i am not asking you to make up with me or your dad, i am asking you to make up with Jesus. Behold now is the accepted time, behold now is the day of salvation. When you hear his voice harden not your heart. Son please, prevent this great danger and calamity that awaits you. Come back to your source, your root, come back to Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith. Who, for the joy set before him, despised the shame, endured the cross and is now sitted at the right hand of God. My dear son, I’m in tears. I weep for your soul. I don’t want you to perish. Don’t give place to the devil”….. I angrily deleted the message. I didn’t even finish it. What an epistle!!!! It was beginning to make me so uncomfortable. I got angry. Wetin sef!!! I reacted. All these guys wey do pass me, how far? Shey dem die? Why is mine different??? Abegi, this is the wrongest time for this please. Not tonight. Lydia and me did the unthinkable just to have a gooood time. Lydia’s idea though, not mine. We drugged mama and papa’s food. We really needed time to make out. We needed the space. We needed the fun. I needed to hear her scream. I needed to eat this fresh food. I’m tired of that OLDIE. That night, i made my room romantic. She walked into my room. She wore this see through dress. My heart skipped. Enough saliva filled my mouth. I could feel my self melt. I grabbed her. We had it all through the night. I noticed she wasn’t even a virgin. After the last round, as she stepped out of the bed heading to the bathroom, in between her waist dimple, i saw a tattoo. A DRAGON with an arrow. WHAT???? I shouted silently. I know that sign. Impossible!!!! How come???? Only a dragonite can wear that tattoo. A pastor’s daughter, a cultist? But she schools in Ghana. Arrrrrghhhh, i shouted. I’m finished. I started shivering. All the sweet fun became bitter pills. I hated my manhood. I wished i never died for her. All i wanted to do was hit and run. I’m done for. She stepped out and caught me shivering. She said……. -baby, you’re ok? Should i put off the A.C? -Yes Yes yes please i replied In my mind….. -shut up you she devil. I wish i could put you off. She started touching me again….. -baby, i called, by now the drugs are expired. You should leave now please. -oh, yeah, that’s true. Can we do this tomorrow ? What ??? I said in my mind Do what tomorrow ? You and who? -Cornell she called, you are lost, what are you thinking about? I smiled stupidly -you’re beautiful. I’m lost in the sweetness of your beauty i lied. -then we are doing this tomorrow again. I’m drugging them higher than today. It will be T.D.B she winked. I shined my teeth. -oooh baby, that’s what i want too but i have a programme to attend. An all night. For three days. Program. -ooooooh God. Can’t you cancel it? What a devil!!! I said in my mind. Cancel what? There’s no programme anywhere sef. How do i escape this? -cornell, I’m asking you. Can’t you? I stood up and went to where she was standing. I managed to hold her. -baby, you know i love you right? I must also do God’s work. It’s just three nights. It’s not forever. Ok?. Look at me, I kissed her. -ok. I will wait she replied. She hugged me so tight and kissed me goodbye. She left, i started crying. I fell to the ground. How did i do this to myself? A dragonite ? They kill their boyfriends who tries to dump them. They sleep with as many men to increase their powers. I got to know all these through dennis my course mate and very good friend. He told me before he died, DO NOT DATE A DRAGONITE. Dennis coughed out blood and died. He dated Ashley, a dragonite. She dealt with him and finally killed him. I refused dating on campus because of this. What i was running away from walked right into my palms and i grabbed it smiling. How i get out of this? Mum’s message came to mind. I had already deleted it. I could remember word to word what mum wrote, the few i read. I was crying. I wanted to make the U-TURN, i remembered all i will drop and how i will become so ordinary. I WITHDREW AGAIN The next morning, MAMA came to my room. -cornell, so you think you can blackmail me and get away with it? -I’m not blackmailing you. I feel it’s high time this thing stops. I have no future with you. This is so crazy. Aren’t you ashamed ? -i love you cornell she replied. My husband is just too weak. He is not strong. He doesn’t make me feel like a woman. He’s too old. Baby please i need you. -just the way you needed Gresham my friend. How you dumped Gresham. You won’t do that to me. MAMA GOT ANGRY -So you chose my daughter over me? How can you rock mother and child? I thought you were responsible. I never knew your quietness is like that of a viper. You don’t know whom you’re messing with. I can assure you cornell, your evidence won’t kill a fly. I am giving you tonight to make up your mind. Else………….. MAMA DEEPED HER LEFT INTO HER PYJAMAS POCKET AND BROUGHT OUT A LIVE OWL. I SCREAMED. -You ain’t seen nothing yet. I call Jesus, i am not like Jesus. I show no mercy. I will crush you to pieces. you can not run away from me. So don’t even think of it. SHE LEFT THE ROOM Argggghhhh!!! God!!! What is really happening ? What just happened ? I’m i imagining things? Was that not an owl? She calls Jesus but she is not like Jesus. I was crying. One end is the Dragonite, the other end is mama and her mysterious owl. I quickly dressed and went to school. Amist all i saw, i didn’t have the urge to leave that house. I still find myself going back there. I went into my room. I sat and thought of were to go that night. Lydia must not come close to me tonight. It was getting dark. I dressed and left my room. Kindly hi ish on+233544142683 to be added to Storyline, fresh stories kingdom, storybaze, Novela and story room,house of stories room and unlimited story platform. I went downstairs. I went to EDET. I told Edet i will pass the night in his apartment. -argh!! Why? He asked -I’m lonely in that room. Nobody to gist with -ehyaaaa, he pitted. No wahala. Ah no get A.C o he laughed. -no problem i replied. Edet and i kept gisting and gisting. I begged earlier not to tell anyone i was in his apartment. He agreed. That night, we heard a knock on Edet’s door. Edet took his knife. -who be that ? -it’s me Edet. Lydia, open up. What??? I died. What is she doing here? Who told that witch i was here? Edet opened. -Edet, lydia called. Do you like what you see!? What is she showing him i thought? -arrrgggghhh, madam nooooo, abeg PAPA go kill me. -how? Will you tell him? I won’t tell him. -arrrrghhh, he fidgeted. can i come in? There was quietness. The next thing i was hearing was Edet moaning like a mad cow. What? I was shivering. I couldn’t record it. It didn’t even come to mind. Everywhere went quiet. The next i heard was….. -lord dragon, Accept my sacrifice. I heard the door jam. I came out. What i saw? I almost fainted. Edet was jerking, vomiting blood. Right before me, EDET DIED. I started crying. How do i escape this? How do i get out of here? What have i gotten myself into. INDEED, THE DEVIL CAME TO STEAL, KILL AND DESTROY
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Edet died. He died right in front of me. I watched edet as he laid in the pool of his own blood. Lydia, a 21year old, daughter of a pastor, killed him. This world has been destroyed. I was shivering. Hey Goddddd!!! How do i get out of here without anyone seeing me. I cried and cried. I could sence cry asking me to leave it alone. I wanted to go out of the room. I felt lydia might be somewhere around the window looking out. If i manage to go out, lydia might see me. Infact i was confused. Staying was disgusting, going out was endangering. At the middle of my thoughts, my phone beeped. Lydia!!!! My heart skipped. I couldn’t even open the message. The beeping came again. I felt like throwing the phone away. The beeping again. I increased the volume of my crying. Looking at Edet lying lifeless. I didn’t touch him. Autopsy might be carried out. My finger print might be traced. Alot ot thoughts coming in and out of my head. I heard this voice….it was so loud, every part of me felt it. The voice said… IT COULD HAVE BEEN YOU. I turned around. The voice seemed like Edet’s. I was fidgeting and crying. Like i was seeing a ghost. -It, it, could have been me? I asked. What could have been me? I kept turning around like looking for the voice. -You would have been the one lying down there tonight, stone cold. You were next in line to be sacrificed. I saved you. I also made you witness this, so you would see for yourself. -Arrrrrrrrggggghhhhh, i cried. I took a glance at Edet again. I cried even more. In my spirit R.KELLY’S “you saved me” kept playing. You saved me You saved me You saved me Gave me a second chance……. It kept playing. I was just crying. My phone beeped again. I decided to go through the messages. It read thus…. Hey baby, i miss you so much. Hey baby, how’s the rehearsal going? Hope you’re good? Hey baby, check your whatsapp. I went online. Lydia sent me her nudes. I deleted it immediately and went off line. I was still crying. Another song started playing in my spirit. “Me again” by j.moss. Forgive me Lord It’s me again Forgive me Lord It’s me again I’ve disobeyed your word I slipped out of your will Remorseful i stand, me again Send your mercy Down from glory Lord restore me Renew me, fix me Again. I could hear angels sing this song. As they did, my sins played like i was seeing a movie.The way i was when i was with my father versus the way i was when i left. The video kept playing. I was hearing this song All to Jesus I surrender All to him i freely give I will ever love and trust him In this present daily life I surrender all I surrender all All to thee, my blessed saviour I surrender all As the Angels sang and God’s spirit spoke, as my sins played before me, i cried. Edet’s Alarm clock sang. It’s 5am already. I heard the main door to the house open. I heard papa’s voice. EDET, he called. I melted. Where do i hide? I cribbed to the door and quietly bolted it. Where do i hide? How do i escape? What do i do now? EDET, he called again, no answer. He started knocking. No answer EDET, come out and open this gate, PAPA SHOUTED. His phone rang Hello, lord satrum, I’m on my way. He started opening the gate himself. EDET, he called, you will hear from me when i get back. He entered his car and zoomed off without locking the gate. I thanked the Lord. I quietly unbolted the door. I tried stepping out. I heard footsteps, my phone started ringing. LYDIA. She was the one coming down. I quickly silenced it. The call dropped. Another call came in, MAMA. Arggh, cornell, you are done for , i said to myself. I refused picking. As she closed the gate she was sending me a voice note. -hey baby, what’s keeping you. It’s past 5 already. You should be home by now. Well guess what. I’m outside. Waiting at the flower corner. I’ve missed you. I’m waiting. Bye. She sent it and gave a wild laugh. One more unfinished business. Anyway, let’s see what has become of my sacrifice. She opened Edet’s door. I was standing right behind the door. The door was covering me actually. I got another call. MAMA WAS CALLING ME. My phone’s light was was beaming. I tired covering it when my knee hit hard on the door. She came out….. -who’s there? Argh, smoke was coming out of my head. I started praying. She passed by that door and went into edet’s room. She didn’t see me. She left. Argh, that day, i knew there was God. I watched her go upstairs. I quietly opened the door and headed for the gate. I unbolted the gate. As i tried stepping out, i heard my name, it was LYDIA’S VOICE. I didn’t even turn. I opened the door and took to my heels. Dear youths, because i broke the hedge the serpent started bitting. MY STORY JUST BEGUN.
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Indeed, God is merciful and also a consuming fire. I ran out of REV FRANK AKPAN’S HOUSE. I didn’t say i walked out, brethren, i ran out. I made up my mind i was going home from there but everything i had is in that house. My clothes, everything. Now i know why lot’s wife looked back. I too paused on the way and looked back. Then this voice came…. “Where do you say you are going to? Your father’s house? Looking like this? With dread on your head and earring on your ear? Is like you have forgotten whom your father is. Have you also forgotten you insulted him? He cried because of you? And you want to go back? Has he ever called you? Has he ever texted you or sent anyone to you? PASTOR CORNELL ADINDU will throw you out.” Argh, i scratched my dread. Infact i loosed it from the band and scattered it. There was this shop close to where i was standing. I went in and asked for bottled water. After pouring in the first round into my mouth and swallowed…. Hmmm, i sighed. This is so true. Dad won’t have me in his house. Where do i go from here? I remembered my music director. No!!! what ever will connect me to GOLD CROWN CONGREGATION, i don’t want. I remembered Jeffrey my friend and course mate. He lives off campus and lives alone. I took bike to his place. On bike, my phone was beeping. When i got to jeff’s place, i paid the bike man and he left. I had called jeff previously and told him about my situation. He gladly welcomed me. Jeff was home when i came. My phone beeped again. I picked the call. The next thing i heard was like a million and one loud speakers. -cornell, you can run but can never hide from me. I am every where just like the wind. According to jeff, he said i gave a loud shout and passed out for 10mins. He became afraid. I jacked up again. I started shouting…. -owl, owl owl, jeff don’t let them eat me. It’s coming, they are coming. Arrrrghhhh, somebody help me. Jeff was confused. The owls disappeared and i came back to myself. Jeff started calming me down. -what is it bro? He asked? -i don’t know, i don’t know i replied. I keep seeing things. Black owl everywhere. Black owl. -calm down junior, jeff replied. Are you having problems with anyone ?. At that point i didn’t know what to say. I kept mute. -listen to me junior, you need to open up o. This is beginning to be a spiritual problem. I sense there are powers after your life. I have been telling you to join us. Who be that bagger wey go try us my brain do comedy? I gbana am na. Join our fraternity. Na for protection o. -no i can’t. I replied. My dad is a pastor. Jeff burst into terrible laughter. -you say wetin? Pastor? Hahahahahahahaha, o boy, pastor na scam. Those ones? A good number of them are members of my fraternity. Oh yes.” I AM A DEVOUTEE OF lORD SATRUM” and i am proud of it. Eheee? lord what? Where have i heard that name from? I couldn’t remember but i knew i have heard that name. -Junior, he continued. lord satrum assures you of all round protection. No evil can touch you. I am from a polygamous family. Lord saturum has been my secret. If not for him, i would have been dead by now. -jeff, i replied, thanks. I’m not interested. I’m fine. -just think about it. This one you are seeing black owl that only you can see. Don’t die in my house o. I thought it had ended. I thought i had seen it all. Jeff went out that night for his devotion. I was alone in the room. Foot steps woke me up. I was hearing koi, koi, koi, koi, i jacked up. Jeff, i called. Are you back? I started hearing a knock. I looked at the time, it’s 2am sharp. Ha!! Who could be at the door by this time. The person laid hands on the handle and was trying to open it. I jumped from the bed and went behind the curtain. The door was locked but the person opened it. The door opened, i saw no one but i heard an echoing voice. -cornell, you can run but you can’t hide from me. You can run, but can’t hide from me. I saw dragon. It was coming close to me. It opened it’s mouth, i have never seen such amount of fire. I started shouting. I knew i was shouting. I was shouting dragon, dragon, fire, fire, somebody help. I could not even shout JESUS. Neighbours came out. They tried holding me down. No way. That night i ran into the streets. Neighbours ran after me. I could remember someone said, BE STILL IN MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS. That was all i could remember. According to jeff, he came home. I was lifeless. His neighbour who was a child of God was praying. They sucessfully brought me back home. Jeff came and told them to stop praying. He told them to help him take me into his apartment. I woke up seeing myself around red, blue, yellow,candles. Welcome, jeff said. All thanks to lord saturm. He just saved you. I couldn’t speak for days. I lay lifeless. Jeff refused the woman who was praying for me to come close. Jeff continued on his incarntation until i was able to speak. I told jeff, PLEASE TAKE ME HOME. TAKE ME TO MY DAD. -Your dad? He replied? Where was he all these while? Did he care? Considering how you left, he is waiting for you to come back like the prodigal son you are not. Don’t let that happen. Going back to your dad is going back to slavery. Show him you can survive. Lord satrum will show you the way. Jeff came home one day and told me that the men of the policeforce came to our department looking for me. They said i am behind the death of one Mr Edet. What? I screamed weakly. That’s a lie. I started crying. That was where i opened up to jeff. What? We have been at war with the dragonites. This is our opportunity. Jeff replied. cornell he called, i can help you out but first, you must join us. If you can’t, i will throw you out. Mind you, a whooping sum of 500k is reward for whoever finds you. The choice is yours. Dear youths, this serpent has really eaten deep. This choice is mine to join or be jailed. I wept. I got angry with heaven. Why God abandoned me, why God didn’t tell my dad to come and look for me. I started giving reasons why i should hate God. Devil helped me with more points. I sold my soul to the devil.
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The police were looking for me with the bait of 500k on my head. Jeff assured me safety if i become a devotee of lord saturm. Jeff came home that evening with a brand new suv. He said he is richer than that. He just wouldn’t want eyes on him because he his still a student. He was in school just to aquire knowledge. Jeff went ahead to tell me that aside safety, i will be stinking rich. I should show my dad that leaving him didn’t RECK me, It REBRANDED me. Oh, what a life!!! I joined. Yes i joined. I joined (crying) i became a devotee. I became a full member of lord saturm. My “first congregation” was when i got initiated into lOrd saturm mugana. Every member gave me a welcoming gift. Dear youths, i was shocked to who i saw. I had already tabled my ordeal with the AKPAN’S to lord saturm. He presented it to the CONGREGATION. He declared war with the DRAGONITES. He also declared LYDIA AKPAN an enemy that MUST DIE. He told them my story. I never knew PASTOR FRANCIS AKPAN was a member too. I didn’t notice him too early until i shared the communion. Infact, aside pastor Frank, i also saw other pastors. They did so much signs and wonders. They are well known in our society. I almost vomited my intestines when i saw PASTOR FRANK. Arrrrgh!!!! He wore the ELITE BADGE. He is close to being a GRANDMASTER. Arrrrrgh, the enemy I’m running away from is in the mist of the people i ran to for safety. What an irony!!!! The pot of communion was shaking on my hand. I sat down. I was breathing fire. I sank into an unseen miry clay when i caught PASTOR FRANK looking at me outrageously. I just knew i am damed when pastor frank was assigned the leader of the team against THE DRAGONS. Oh what a safety i have acquired for myself. After the meeting at about 4:15am. I walked hurriedly into Jeff’s car. PASTOR FRANK blocked me. “Brother cornell”, he said stretching out his hands for a hand shake. I didn’t oblige. You are welcome to our congregation he said. I was really shaking. My heart was on beats. I could feel i was peeing but my trouser wasn’t wet. I kept stirring at him. Then he came closer and forcefully took my hands……. -whoever brought you to this congregation, has succeeded in destroying you completely you swine. You slept with my wife and my daughter. You killed my gateman . Well, i know you didn’t kill edet. I can not accuse you openly about sleeping with my wife and daughter. But you know what? You will pay for all these with edet’s death. I have strong evidence against you. Your bracelet and handkerchief. Cornell, you don’t trick a spirit. Even my wife doesn’t know that i know. You will pay darely cornell. A little good advice, spend your last days well. Your days are numbered.!!!! . Hahahahahahahaha, he laughed. Just for the records, picture this, PASTOR CORNELL ADINDU’S ONLY SON,,A MURDERER. Your father has been a pain on our neck. This is a good time to wipe him off. He left. I fell down. Argh !!! Mum said it. “THE FORCES YOUR FATHER FOUGHT ARE COMING AFTER YOU” i couldn’t even cry. I watched him walk up to Jeff. I didn’t know what he told him but i watched jeff drive off. He didn’t wait for me. Everybody left. I sat there all alone. I couldn’t go to jeff’s house. The GRAND MASTER must have instructed him on what to do. I got up and headed for HOME. “I will arise, and go to my father and i will say, father i am sorry. I know i have sinned against heaven and before you. I’m no longer worthy to be called your son”. I cried as i recited this scripture inside me. I took off the earring. I wish i could take off the dread too. I took bike that early morning for fear of PASTOR FRANK and his threat. I got the shock of my life, as i got close to the gate, THE MEN OF THE POLICE FORCE flooded my gate. Argghh, i told the bike man to turn. Oh my God!!! These people!!! They knew i had no other place to go. They knew home will be my last option. The bike man asked me….. -oh boy, wetin happen? Why you dey run for police? -just keep going, i replied. Dey go, dey go. -dey go where? He asked. To be frank, i didn’t know where to go. That question really got me shedding tears. -emmm, carry me go where you pick.me abeg. I replied with tears in my eyes. I decided to go back to lord saturum. I knelt before lord saturm and.cried. I totally forgot i was before the devil who knows no mercy. lord saturm said……. -you wronged a grand master. He has the final say over you as it is. The girl in question is his daughter. My hands are tied. I can’t help you. I cried. Oh jeff!!! Why??? I cursed jeff. I regreted knowing jeff. He put me through this. Where is the safety he promised? The wealth, riches, the so called REBRANDING? I cried and cried . lord satrum.said…… There’s only one way out. I was joyed. I stood up and wiped my tears. Can you do this? He asked Without even finding out what it was i hurriedly said yes. I will do anything for my freedom. ANYTHING? he asked Yes Anything i replied. WE WANT YOUR MOTHER AS *SACRIFICE FOR THE FULL MOON CELEBRATION. ONCE YOU DO THAT, ALL CHARGES WILL BE DROPPED AGAINST YOU. YOU WILL BE FREE. WHAAAAAAT* !!!! I screamed. My what???? Argh, surely, the devil’s freedom is BONDAGE IN DISGUISE. Heeey!!! GOD. Never, Never, No, No, Nooo, Then get out. You have no business here. I ran out. I cannot kill my mother, i will not kill my mother. Mum?? Noooo There and then, mum’s calls, warnings, text messages kept playing. I didn’t notice the truck coming. I noticed i was hit. I fell to the ground. That’s all i could remember. I woke up. Noticed i was lying down. I couldn’t move my legs. I also noticed my face was tied. I didn’t know what was going on. I felt pains all over. I heard voices. I heard my mum’s voice. I heard dad’s voice. I felt tears drop. My eyes were paining me as the tears came out. I kept hearing……. He’s back, He’s back, thank you Jesus. I was told i have been there for 3months. Dear youths, i lost my sight. Cornell, the swag loving guy. Cornell, the niggar. Lost his sight. There and then, i knew that the BONDAGE IN JESUS is safer than the FREEDOM IN.SATAN. No wonder Jesus said TAKE MY YOKE UPON YOU. It is lighter. Dear youths, I AM NOW BLIND.
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So inspiring
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